A Long Journey

I am so blessed to be a Mommy to my sweet daughter. Mother's Day is very special to me, but I can't help to think of my good friends who long to be a Mommy also. Chris and I did not have an easy time reaching the road to being parents. There were so many times during that 3 year process that I thought it would never happen for us. I remember too clearly all of the testing, medicines, doctor visits, blood draws, charts, ultrasounds, side effects and heartache that came along with trying. We became pregnant a few months after starting clomid, only to quickly find out that we lost that baby. Oh the heartache; I can't express it. It took a really long time to realize that for whatever reason, God did not allow us to have that baby in our arms, but kept that one for Himself. I struggled with some pregnancies of friends along the way. I was so happy for them, but so sad for Chris and I. I just didn't understand.

But now I can see that God knew all along what was best for our family. Ava was definately worth the wait! She is just the most loving, funny, sweetest kid! She is all I ever dreamed of, and she is all my hopes and dreams for the future. I can't wait to see everyday what she is going to do next; what new things she is going to teach us. I always longed for a big family, but maybe that is not in the cards for us. Lately we have thought about having another baby; not ALOT of thought, but some. I guess a little of me is reluctant to dive back into that process because of what we went through before, but the outcome is worth it. I have accepted that God may intend for us to just have Ava, and I am content with that fact. Another baby would be a blessing, but it is a gift that may not come.

For all of my friends who are wanting children of their own, hold fast to God. He knows the plans for you and He is working for your good. The road is hard, but He is both on that road with you, AND waiting at the end, no matter the outcome. I am praying for you to have peace with what God desires for you.

Jennifer

Well, life has just been a little hectic here in the William's house! Ava has had a upper respiratory infection, Chris had to travel again, work has been a little crazier than normal, and we have had some major health problems with family members. Chris' Uncle Frank had to have emergency open heart surgery after a sudden heart attack... he is still in the hospital and having some abnormal heart rythyms, but doing ok overrall considering the severity of the situation and his age. My Grandfather, Chester, ran into a brick mailbox and totalled his car! He is having to face the fact that driving is no longer in the cards for him. His health is declining so very fast. My family is having a little get together tomorrow to talk about what we can all do to help them and what changes need to be changed. Also, my close friend/other Mom is dealing with her sweet Father having to go into a nursing home after falling and chipping his hip. WOW! All this in really LESS than a week. I just don't know how people without Jesus can even begin to deal with these sorts of things. Please pray for these sweet, dear people if you have a minute. They are ALL the most wonderful folks you could meet.

So, on a lighter note, a funny story about Ava from this week. I was putting her pj's on after her bath and she was singing "itsy bitsy spider." She was singing in this really high pitched voice and then all of a sudden she started singing in this DEEP (almost scary) voice that I have never heard. Then whole song she would switch up the voices...it was SO cute! She and I laughed a lot and I found out from her teacher at pre-school that they sing these two songs like that so she was combining them! This week she made me a card at school; here are some of the funny questions and answers:

"How old is your Mommy?" TWO (the oldest Mommy was nine!)

"What does Mommy like to eat?" Umm, Some Bread

"What is Mommy's favorite color?" Pink

"Who does Mommy love?" Umm, AVA!

So funny! She got a lot of them correct!

Happy Mother's Day to all of my Mommy friends and to those who would like to be Mommy's.

Jennifer